Letters to July #2

Dear July,

I want to be honest with you. You scare me. Your reputation hides behind the umbrella of summer magic, but I think you're secretly in cahoots with August. I've got issues with August. Who do you want me to be, July? One part carefree, summer haze - twelve parts impending decisions and unsettling changes. How can you fit all those tricks up your sleeve? I wish your days would pass slower. Or maybe I wish that I could just wander more slowly through what you have to offer. I like you best when I'm still enough to notice how goofy you can be; the thunderstorm, tan line, melting Popsicle nonsense that bubbles up when I least expect it. That's why we love you, July. Because despite your sneaky, imminent doom, you always manage to remind me how to play, how to adventure, how to hope. Sometimes you manage to ruin every semblance of a plan that I can muster, but I've yet to be entirely disappointed by the outcome. So we beat on, July - you and I - two crazy peas in a pod. Keep teaching me how to make mistakes and mud pies; how to be messy and whole and ok all at the same time. I can't do it with out you. 

As always x

Study Abroad

London.
As of today, the plane ticket is purchased and I’m officially preparing to be in London for my entire spring semester. That’s a lot of months to be gone on my own. I’m scared and nervous and worried, but I’m unbelievably thrilled and ready to go. I’m not sure if I’ve ever been in so much anticipation in my entire life. It’s this feeling of antsy nervousness and hopeful expectation that confirms what a worthwhile experience it will be. I’ve found that more often than not, it’s the decisions that scare me a little it that end up being the most rewarding.


Helen Keller, in a moment of pure genius I’m sure, said “Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.” Well OK Helen. Adventure it is.